I Came Back From Hell

This is a story about Kent. Kent was sentence to death for drug trafficking. Before, he was also involved in the bank robbery, gang fighting etc. But some how he was pardoned by DYMM Yang Di Pertuan Agong. After 12 years in jail, he walked out again as a free man , by then he was 36. Kent wanted to change when he came to see me, but this is the thing I failed to do unless his heart wanted to. He narrated his story which I think might be a lesson to be learnt by our parents and students today.
"My father was a drunker. When I was young, I remember he always came back drunk, beating my mother for no reason. I was beaten too. Every time I got beaten, I hated him. I was doing quite well in the primary school but my mother never encourage me to do better. As the only son in the family,she said ,I must came out to work earlier because my father was jobless. The family was too poor to support me. Somehow I pursued my secondary education. Due to my language barrier, I was slacking in my study. I must admit that I didn't work hard at all. I started to create discipline problems in school. I tried to influence some guys to join me. Secretly I am forming a gang in the school and I was the 'taiko'. In order to be more powerful, I looked for a bigger gangster group outside to get protection. Many students were afraid of our gang because we got them beaten outside the school if not obeying. I was the law breaker in the school. Not long after that when I was about to finish Form 3, I was expelled from the school. The last thing I did was scratching teacher's car and beat him in the class. I was happy to leave school then, at least I got the freedom and fresh air to breath rather than sitting in the boring classes. From then and onwards, I was doing work for the gang. Daytime I worked in my uncle food stall and at night I did everything my 'taiko 'ordered .That included gang fighting, drug selling, stealing motorbike, cars etc. Due to my bravery and loyalty I was promoted as 'yiko' (2nd brother) at age 17. I felt like a hero . Due to my age, I was given a task as a drug seller. Pub, night club, disco were the popular places where business was conducted. I remember one night when we were at the night club, I disturbed a girl . I didn't know she was some other 'taiko' s girl. That night, the other gang was surrounded me, my 'taiko' and other friends escaped and I was alone, beaten to near death. When I woke up on the hospital bed, my mother was beside me crying. Later I came to know that my gang had disowned me, they didn't want troubles from the other gang. They were much more powerful. I was disappointed over my gang who betrayed me, but at the same time I started to form my own gang. I was brave and fierce, not long after that my gang grew bigger. At age 20, I already controlled 50 members. From then, my life was never away from gang fighting, drugs, women, robbery, stealing etc. Very fast, I was tracked down by the police. To cut short the story, I was caught in the year 1993 and sentence to death penalty.
Life in the jail was a nightmare for me. Every single sound at night could shaken my soul for that could have been my turn . Many times I witness the convicts before me was taken to the gallery, dragged by the guards for they were too weak to walk. Each day approaching, might be the last day for me. When night shield, I would think of my mother. Oh how I hope my father could beat me again. I don't know how long time passes when someone came to break the news about my father's death. His eyes were open, they said, his last wish to see his only son was not fulfil. I trembled in grief , regrets came cutting into my heart and soul .The hidden hatred inside me reveal itself...whom I hated most is myself, I hated myself so much that I wish I could just die. I wanted to say sorry to dad, mum but it was too late...One day, I was told that I was pardoned by DYMM Agong. I knew I did not deserved this but here I am, coming back from hell..."
Kent is a special case, for not everybody is as lucky as Kent. There are some mistakes you shouldn't make in life, once mistake, there is no return...may see you in hell.